A Year Of Initiation
As we stand on the cusp of a new year, I find myself drawn to reflect on the one that’s passed—this wild, unpredictable, and deeply transformative year. 2024 was not just a year; it was an initiation. It was a tearing down, a stripping away of all that was familiar and comfortable, leaving me bare and exposed, staring into the core of who I truly am. When the structures crumble and the familiar dissolves, what remains? Who am I when there is nothing left to cling to? These questions shaped my journey this year, pulling me deeper into the mystery of myself.
It was a year of destruction, yes—but also a year of creation. In the space where so much was lost, new seeds were planted. Loss and love walked hand in hand, teaching me that they are not opposites but two sides of the same sacred coin. There were moments of confronting my deepest fears, moments when I thought they might break me. But here I am, still standing, still breathing, more alive than ever. There’s a certain alchemy that happens on the other side of fear—it transforms into courage, a quiet, unshakable strength that says, “I can face anything.”
This year brought profound change and self-discovery. I traveled alone and found a sense of contentment I had never known before—a deep, quiet joy in the freedom to wander and the simplicity of being with myself. It was a year of letting go and creating anew. I closed one chapter by dissolving a company that had been a significant part of my life, honoring what it had taught me, and stepped into the creation of something new, imbued with clarity and purpose. Through all the twists and turns, I continued to show up—not perfectly, but with an open heart, ready to embrace the lessons life laid before me.
Some of the most incredible moments were the simplest. Sitting beneath a night sky so breathtaking it moved me to tears, I felt the vastness of life and my small but meaningful place within it. The embrace of love where you’re heart permanently expands. In ceremony, I shared space with extraordinary beings, grounding in the sacred and the unseen, finding connection in ways that words can’t capture. I felt more lost than I ever have, wandering through unfamiliar terrain. And yet, paradoxically, I also felt more at home within myself than ever before—more rooted in my body, more connected to the earth, and more attuned to the rhythm of life.
The last two years have been the hardest. They’ve felt like being dragged through mud, with pain and suffering waiting at every turn. But even within that struggle, I discovered treasures—diamonds of wisdom forged in the fire of adversity. I’ve learned about love, about life, and about God in ways that have reshaped me. Most importantly, I’ve learned not to take life too seriously or too personally. Dance parties with my boys reminded me that joy is always within reach, even when life feels impossibly heavy.
2024 was a year of purification, a distillation of what truly matters. It burned away illusions and left me with clarity—about who I am, what I value, and how I want to move through this world. Through this refining process, I’ve become so clear that as I move forward into the next year and beyond, I will shape my actions to walk in the deepest integrity and coherence available to me. I am committed to aligning what I think, feel, and do—to living in a way where my heart, mind, and actions resonate as one.
As I gaze toward the horizon of 2025, I feel a sense of peace and excitement. The year of metamorphosis has helped me to find my wings, and now I am ready to spread them. I long to see the world from a new vantage point, to soar into what’s next with a heart wide open and a spirit unbound.
This year has taught me that through the greatest challenges and destruction comes the space to rebuild, to create something even more beautiful. It’s in the ashes that the seeds of our most radiant selves are planted. As I move forward, I carry the lessons, the love, and the unshakable belief that even in the hardest times, life is conspiring for us.
To all who have walked this path with me, THANK YOU! To the year that was, I bow in gratitude. And to the year ahead—I am ready. ✨🦋✨
